This new year thing is hitting me hard. It feels heavy and momentous at the same time. I'm feeling that, if I don't step up to the plate right now, I will never will. And I will go insane.
Over the past couple of years, I've had an infinitude of opportunities, a wealth of support, all of the tools at my fingertips, the free time necessary to do the work...and all I can see from this vantage point are the missed opportunities. I suppose this common, at the start of each new year, to look back at the last one and see what didn't get done..... again..... And yet there is a potency to this particular moment in time. I can feel the changes happening in the world, and my soul is whispering "now is the time. This is why you came, above all. To be here now, with the people you are with, in the place where you are."
And not just to "be here," but to BE here NOW. Being ever-more present in each moment, saying YES even more quickly to the seemingly 'crazy' ideas that pop into my head, sharing even more profoundly with my family and friends what I'm up to (and why)....truly, it is time to BE the change I want to see in the world. And there's a lot of change I want to see.
I want to see a deeper respect for our Mother Earth and gratitude for all of the resources she shares with us. Indeed, there is nothing that we have that did not ultimately come from her. Why do we not sink down our knees each morning and honor and bless her? Instead, we move about our lives mostly unconsciously, tossing a throw-away wrapper, turning down the air conditioning, and buying a new mobile phone without much thought other than the cost.
I can toss the wrapper without thinking about it because it was 'free.' I can turn down the AC if I can afford the energy bill. I can buy a new phone based on the cost and service options. I don't have to consider the forest that was cut down to create the wrapper, the environmental degradation caused by mining the fossil fuels or the gold, copper, silver and other metals needed to create the phone, the conditions in which those hard-working miners and the factory workers toil, or the toxic air emissions produced by all of those activities.
I could go on and on, and yet the question remains: if I'm so passionate about the change I want to see in the world, what am I gonna do about it?
Talking with a friend this morning, I realize that I am not alone. A lot of people are wondering "who am I in this new era?" The so-called end of the Mayan calendar has passed and we're still here. What is our contribution to be? I'm reading the book The World Cafe: Shaping Our Futures Through Conversations that Matter (Juanita Brown, 2005). It seems we humans are hard-wired to collaborate and create through conversation in small groups, dating back to the days we gathered around the fire to tell stories, establish tribal law and engage in ceremony.
It occurs to me that perhaps the reason that all of this self-talk about my role in 2013 feels so heavy is because I'm doing it alone. I'm inspired to create a master mind group of people who want to meet weekly for eight weeks to share the journey of self-reinvention in this brave new age. We will converse and share ideas about what it means to be be the change we want to see in the world. If that interests you, too, message me, and let's have a conversation that matters.