I realize that I have been trying to take over God's work. It's like the old saying about trying to teach a pig to sing. It's a waste of time an really annoys the pig.
It is for God to create, for me to allow. For God to manifest, for me to receive. For God to pull together the necessary pieces of the puzzle of the entire Universe, to set in motion that shock wave of seemingly random incidents and coincidences that bring a new friend, a business associate, or a rare moment of intimacy with my husband; and for me to rest in the exquisite trust, joyful anticipation and gratitude of All that is. Blessed be.